So recently I've been getting scholarships that are supposed to go towards college expenses, obviously. The money is given to us in the form of checks and we're supposed to deposit/cash them. I've gotten over $5k so far and I've spent it on a new laptop, new clothes that I need for college as well as a few other miscellaneous things (some I feel were unnecessary and I feel bad). However, I have also been using the money to help around my house, such as buying food and whatnot because I am in a low-income family and money is extremely tight for us. Should I feel bad for using my scholarship money to help out around my house in the aforementioned way? I feel like if the scholarship people knew, they wouldn't be upset but since it isn't directly used for college, they would be a bit disappointed. I think the part that bothers me the most is that I have to take out over $20k in loans and I haven't completely responsibly used the money for college and I freak out every now and then because student debt scares me. I was given a shot by scholarship donors and I feel as if I am not responsibly spending the money. I plan to work over the summer to replenish the funds I've spent and hopefully that'll make me feel a bit better. Can anyone give me any advice to make me feel better or make sense of what I've done? I have such a guilty conscience it's not even funny. HELP!
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